Well there's alot to say about being a first-time mother, but because of the immense sleep deprivation there is also some brain stallouts.  I could talk about my horrible pregnancy, the difficulties of having a baby in NICU, the difficulties of breastfeeding, or being tied to a breast pump every three hours. 

However, the most amazing thing about being a mom is that there really is an amnesia about the above things and all you think about is the sweet little angel who you watch sleep.  I fall in love with Zaden more and more each day--although the poor little guy is subject to mine and Ira's inexperience as parents, but you learn as you go.

You know, I love the little guy so much.  He is completely dependent on Ira and me for everything and he doesn't have much to offer us back at least right now.  So I figure God loves us just as much--not because of what we have to offer Him, but because we are HIS.  His children, His Creation, and He just likes to take care of us even when we make a mess of things, or fuss and cry at what life is handing us at the moment. 

So, dear friend the next time you stop to ponder what this life is all about--

Remember that there is a loving father who wants to be with us because he has adopted us as children and he has made it possible for the imperfect to be with Him (The perfect) through the blood of His son.  May the joy and struggles of parenthood bring all of you closer to an understanding of our Heavenly Father's love.  

Kari